What a wonderful day

Praise God for this day. I feel like I'm learning so much about everything. I'm almost overwhelmed with various emotions, both good and bad, but Christ is guiding me every step of the way. I'm having lunch tomorrow with Jose, my new friend from church. I've talked a lot to some really good people today, and it helps just getting things out in the open. I don't have to hide my addiction any longer, and it's an amazing feeling having it out in the open, so that I can get help without being ashamed or feeling guilt. I spoke to someone about the guilt I was having about hurting my special someone, and he said "I'd be willing to bet that joy over your renewed connection with Him far outweighs any frustration and/or sadness she's felt about your past together." That really put a lot of things in perspective, and helped relieve some of my pain, shame, and guilt over the hurt I have caused her. Everything is a learning process, and it's great having people who genuinely care as your family in Christ. I'm struggling with my lonliness and it's a constant struggle not to seek some cheap thrill, so I've prayed a lot about that. I've been pornography free for 4 full days now. It's a great feeling, and fighting that addiction is opening up a wonderful world.