Reaffirming my life to Christ

Yesterday afternoon, I made the biggest positive change in my life I could ever imagine. I prayed for my heart to open itself back up to The Lord. I accepted Christ into my life again, and I'm getting baptized next Sunday. I should have done this a long time ago. There is no way to describe the feeling I got. The weight of the world was lifted off. Christ relieved me of my burdens. I want to get involved with things at church and help make a difference for people. I'm tired of being an observer of life, I want to start living it. It took losing someone very dear to me for me to realize just how low I had sunk. I've never been a bad person, I just wasn't allowing Jesus to walk with me every step of my life. It was the most amazing feeling when I accepted him back in. So peaceful, so calm, totally oblivious to the things going on around me.

I was feeling trouble and having thoughts of hurting myself, and I reached out to a wonderful Pastor who helped me get back to Jesus. I will never be able to thank this wonderful man enough. Every single person in the church made me feel so welcome. It felt like a huge family, you could feel the love and caring in the room. The funny part was that I didn't know anyone there except for the Pastor and his wife. I thought I would be nervous going in front of all those strangers, but the Lord was carrying me. My feet didn't touch the ground. My Pastor put his arms around me and prayed for me, it was the most amazing feeling I've ever had. My Pastor broke down and was sobbing when he was introducing me to the church. He has known me a long time, and he has known I was troubled. He told the church that he had been praying for this day, and he was tickled to death and honored that I asked him to help me find Christ again. There wasn't a dry eye in the church, and everyone welcomed me so warmly afterwards.

People began telling me how much their lives had changed after doing what I had just done, and I was overwhelmed with peace and joy. I knew right then that was the first few minutes of the beginning of something wonderful. I can't wait to get back to church, I can't wait to get baptised, and I can't wait to begin learning as much as I can through Christ's will. He was there for me all along, and I denied Him. It's any amazing feeling to let Him back in and start living my life for the right reasons. There have been many reasons for me being the person I was, and now it's time to forgive people and forget those reasons and begin my walk with Christ.

I was able to talk to my father last night about something that happened that I had never been able to forgive him for. It was a good talk, and I was finally able to forgive him, and that was an amazing feeling.

I plan on beginning some Bible studies, notably about forgiveness, peace, treating others better, and helping people less fortunate than we are. I am going to keep track of my growth with God on this blog. It will be interesting to be able to see just how far I've come, and have it documented. And if it inspires someone else somehow...that's even better. God Bless you.